I see you there
Trapped under the weight of your insecurities
Fragile fingers slipping while trying to get out your keys
I just stand there smiling at your lack of subtly
You look at me straight in the eyes and I see everything
Every time you never felt good enough
To every emotion you felt like conquering
It’s what made you into the person standing before me now
And I love the way you bite your lip
And look at me while feigning innocence
Caught up in the passion, the chemistry this moment created
I’m hanging on your every word as you hang on by a thread
“The odds are in our favor tonight,” you whispered in my ear
You kiss me on the lips and then open your door inviting me in
And now that I’ve finally entered your fortress
This romantic entanglement can begin
I enter the apartment and we make awkward small talk
You know how it goes; we’ve done this hundreds of times before
And each person that became another notch on our bedpost
Carefully laid out how this scene would play for us
I stared into the face that other men had stared into before
But never quite in the way that I do, with adoration
You stare into my eyes, the way other women had before
Trusting that the better part of me would shine through
Is this love or another delusion to serve as a crutch?
I try not to think too far into these things but you know how my mind works
You can tell I’m trapped in my head and you find it funny
But if you knew the things that kept me up at night you’d hit the ground running
I take a look around your apartment, it’s comfortably messy
A testament to the person you are and your need for security
A love like this is often the calm before the storm
A second chance at enlightened impurities
My heart begins beating viciously as you take me by the hand
You lead me to your bedroom, the arrogant walk of a doomed man
My palms and face begin to flush, dripping in sweat
I bring you close to me and kiss you as we fall onto your bed
The room starts to spin as we pull off each other’s clothes
You kiss me hopelessly like I’m the only one who knows
I kiss you back with the hope that we’d stay true
I’m too scared to admit that I am hopeless for you
We make love amidst a sea of caustic greens and blues
We parade around this room like we’ve got nothing left to lose
Not once, not twice, not even a third time would do
I traced the contours of your body like you were brand new
I found out the best part of me lived inside of you
You walked with my demons every direction they turned to
And you slept with my angels comfortably beside you
I fought against this world alone but now I fight alongside you
You’re everything a misanthrope like me reviled in the past
But the romantic in me keeps trying to hold your hand
Falling in love with you was never a part of the plan
But now I can see that our revolution is at hand
They tried to keep us apart, they tried to brand us insane
But we held on tight, despite this fear of folly and flames
Because a love without madness is a love that isn’t true
I learned that the very moment I fell in love with you
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