Sometimes I smoke too much and drink too much
I know it’s a crutch that I can’t give up
A better man than me would say enough’s enough
When the gin and tonic’s overflowin’ the cup
I’m not a decent man but I’m getting there
Wasn’t a part of the plan and I’m a little scared
We try to play it off but sometimes life isn’t fair
And the pain in your chest becomes a growing despair
Wanna say I’m alone but I know that I’m not
Truthfully, I’m loved by more people than I thought
When I wanted to give up you gave me a reason to fight
You stood by my side to get me through the hard night’s
Tried to repay you in kind but it was my flaws that shined
But you assured me through it all it would be alright
And deep in my heart I know that you are right
And I’m proud of who you’ve become in this life
When you were little we’d play this game where I’d pretend to die
And every single time you’d freak out and cry
And I know I was a dick for bringing tears to your eyes
But it felt good to matter that much to your life
Wasn’t always good to you but know that I tried
It had more to do with me than you, alright?
Ever since I was young I just felt empty inside
So I tried to fill that void with everything in sight
But those were my growing pains and I took ‘em in stride
But now being your big brother fills me with pride
Don’t know what Ima do without you but gotta try
You’re moving on and it looks like so am I
What comes next for you might scare and excite
But it’s all a part of what makes life worth the ride
People are gonna hurt you and push you aside
But the shame and pain will eventually subside
There’s more to life than people that leave your side
But I’ll always have your back just like you had mine
There’s more to life than what appears on the surface
You might struggle at times but it’ll all be worth it
And while I’ve got the chance I want to give you advice
So you can understand the few things I did right
Don’t listen when they tell you you’re not good enough
You’re defined by your comeback from being dragged through the mud
And don’t ever confuse getting high with love
You’re only gonna meet a few you’ll think the world of
So don’t push ‘em away when the goin’ gets tough
‘cause compassion is the only thing worth being made of
And always spread hope in all that you create
Things may get rough but it’ll work out in a way
Some will leave and everyone will change
Life is less like a movie, more like a revolving stage
And don't you fret when life seems to subtract
Cuz everything it adds will keep you on track
And don’t be afraid of having to take a step back
Just take two steps forward on a different path
Remember how the game I played on you used to end?
With me saying “boo” and you laughing, excited
Then hugging you and saying I’d be around ‘till the end
I can assure you that’s a promise that I’ll have kept
And wherever life takes you I wish you the best
Because you deserve the best and nothing less
Just know wherever you go, you are loved
And not even 3000 miles can separate us
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