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The E​.​P​.​'s of S​.​A​.​, Vol. 2

by Social Anxiety

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1.
I was born of the night, devoid of light No easy fix for the darkness amassed inside You think it’s chic the way it envelops me But this ain’t a scene; it’s a goddamn murder machine I found my footing on a trail of corpses I don’t really know how I became this morbid No chemicals inside I’m trying not to force it With the end in sight I’m trying not to abort this I’ve got a funny feeling and it feels like fury When I catch a case watch me decimate the jury I’ve got a 9 to 5 job of making people disappear The lyrics I write work like a spear When they collect the tattered remains Of all of the people in my life I took in vain I’d like to think you all feel the same But the passion you see is my claim to fame Would you steal for me? I’d rather have you kill for me But if you’d kill for me You can feel for me Cuz this is real for me Don’t ever conceal your feelings for me Just be real for me I want to hear you scream Welcome to my show, you’ve entered a pipe dream I’ll be your guide into my psychopathic, misanthropic wanderings This isn’t music, this is noise on key Because I’ve had enough of these genre thieves You thought no one could be as dark as me You’re goddamn right, I’m the king of grief Making the entire world get on their knees And bob their head to the distortion I breathe Would you steal for me? I’d rather have you kill for me But if you’d kill for me You can feel for me Cuz this is real for me Don’t ever conceal your feelings for me Just be real for me I want to hear you scream Would you steal for me? Just don’t steal my CD Would you kill for me? That’s so fucking flattering Can you feel for me? I’d like to make you feel your feelings Is this real enough for me? I want to make you think Would you steal for me? I’d rather have you kill for me But if you’d kill for me You can feel for me Cuz this is real for me Don’t ever conceal your feelings for me Just be real for me I want to hear you scream Would you steal for me? I’d rather have you kill for me But if you’d kill for me You can feel for me Cuz this is real for me Don’t ever conceal your feelings for me Just be real for me Let me hear you scream
2.
If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A despicable world with no salvation in sight If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A trail of tears without the slightest bit of fight If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A family praying for a sign of god’s light If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A future where you and I could watch the sun rise Time passed me by; I don’t know what I hoped for I was just searching for that girl I could open the door for All I know is that when I leave this earth I want to do it in a blaze of glory, not with a face full of dirt Time passed me by; I’ve finally opened my eyes To the indecencies that plague mankind And when I lay my head down to rest one final time I want to leave this place better then when I came into this life If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A world bent on it’s own destruction in real-time If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A trail of bodies piled up a mountain high If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? Past lovers mourning over me in the moonlight If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A chance for you and I to survive Time passed me by; I can’t say I handled it well I don’t get how people can be so patient with an empty shell All I know is that when I leave this planet I don’t want to have taken the tiniest moment for granted Time passed me by; like a whisper in the wind I’ve spent all of this time searching for the ideal friend And when I lay my head down to rest one final time I want to be a better person to you than you were to I If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A country where the odds are stacked against us a mile high If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A trail of breadcrumbs to find my way back into the light If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? People appreciating the few things that I did right If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A moment for you and I to intertwine Time passed me by… (x8) If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A city imploding under the weight of its skyline If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? A trail of signs pointing out my every slight If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? An adoring fan who feels dead inside If I died tonight, what would I leave behind? Nothing because I haven’t done shit!
3.
Baphomet 03:33
You’re on some “save me” shit but I’m a baphomet 666 tatted across my chest She looks like a god gone androgynous But she’s got the nerve to call me a misogynist I’m the king of freaks with the devil’s dick Ready and set to slaughter the masses And reduce this world into a bed of ashes But I won’t be famous till I’m dead in a casket You’ll all learn my name posthumously And then you’ll finally want to buy my CD Am I wasting my time trying to chase pipe dreams? Should I just give up and leave the scene? I’m the Edgar Allen Poe of the rap game With a paranoia-inflicted lizard brain You all point your fingers and call me insane But you ain’t seen nothing yet I’m the social pariah of the murder scene Chasing my delusions of grander things I want to be voice for everyone who thinks That no one in their world is listening If people shake their head at you make the message obscene And force yourself out of obscurity And if people cover their ears turn the volume up And show them exactly what the fuck is up If you wanna be heard you gotta assault them with sound Turn the bass up until you shake the ground Reign down a hellstorm of synthetic sounds I’ll be your Jesus Christ, try and take my crown I hope the thorns cut your fingers and make you bleed Little did you know, you’ll be bleeding for me I’m getting exposure as long as you’re mentioning me I’d rather be infamous than be nothing
4.
MTHRFCKR 04:36
Bone-headed, blood-reddened Jesus Christ wannabe Afflicted, narcissistic Republican patsy Democrat under the sheets, forced Masonic imagery You’ll be whatever they tell you to be Jarhead, look-alike, cult fetish symmetry Screaming slogans like some kind of machinery Imperialistic scheme called an American Dream You’ll believe whatever they tell you to believe Look at all the sheep flocking to the shearing Look at al the guilty pleading at their hearings Part of a system with no individuality But open arms to menial mentalities Fuck this system and everything about it I think we are all better off without it Second class dreams stored in atrophy It’s all of part of their grander scheme Fuck this system and everything about it I think we are all better off without it All the right and left care about is their greed Leaving the rest of us to beg on our knees Patriotic, type-A, co-dependent personalities You’d really depend on a government for everything? Call my paranoid, schizotypal misanthropy Anything but misguided rhetoric against your country No gods, no masters Take down the flags from the rafters No bullshit, no lies Who would you rather trust with your life? Look at the sheep flocking to a shepherd with pride Our entire civilization was built on lies To protect those with means from those without We'll never finish on top the way it’s planned out Fuck this system and everything about it I think we are all better off without it Second class dreams stored in atrophy It’s all of part of their grander scheme Fuck this system and everything about it I think we are all better off without it All the right and left care about is their greed Leaving the rest of us to beg on our knees So smash all the windows, break down all the doors To all of the establishments that we abhor Corporations are who own this whole country So let’s hit em where it hurts, in their pockets that are so deep Fuck this system and everything about it I think we are all better off without it Second class dreams stored in atrophy It’s all of part of their grander scheme Fuck this system and everything about it I think we are all better off without it All the right and left care about is their greed Leaving the rest of us to beg on our knees Fuck this system and everything about it I think we are all better off without it They treat us like dogs giving us scraps to eat Just so we can continue treating them like kings Fuck this system and everything about it I think we are all better off without it Working till we die just to make ends meet While they retire early and live out our dreams
5.
Spent my days screaming about the astral plain But it never meant a goddamned thing anyway You’ve spent your nights praying away in vain As if there’s really a soul in that body to save Your blood-brain barrier is slowly inching away As you inject yourself with a contusion to claim Your conscience is a figment of your higher brain You’ve learned to turn it all off either way I am in a pantheistic state of being Where I am all and all is me I’m encapsulating my own stream Of conscious flow I’ve set free When is it a duality ceases to be And just falls apart at the seams? I’m a comfortable wolf in my sheep’s clothing Writing about the feelings that I’m loathing Everything Is an enigma trapped in glass for the world to see I am holding Onto a hope that there is something bigger out there than me Everything Is an illusion of a delusion that grew up with me I am holding Onto a dream that reality isn’t all that’s left for me Trapped Under the weight of what my delusions of grandeur bring Is there Really somebody out there who knows every move I make? Where does The mind go when the body ceases to be? I am holding Onto the idea that there is something greater than me A duality of primordial ascended host deities Or maybe just an interconnectedness between human beings Some say religion is a farce for only the sheep to believe But your god could really be whatever you want it to be You can put yourself on a pedestal for everyone to see We raise armies but preach teach civility We are the makers of dreams and the foundation of screams I am all and all is me, I am all and all is me A carefully concocted existential symmetry A ballet between human beings and deities A corresponding affliction of both mind and machine I created the creator who created me A collective consciousness too grieved to think Mind over matter in the face of adversity Grace over disorder when the walls are crumbling I am all and all is me, I am all and all is me
6.
Lady Crimson 04:29
Her skin tastes of success, she’s dressed to impress With a scent of rosemary, she’s looking her best The finest fallen angel in this hell she calls home The bible never told her the truth, even angels die alone I watch her work the room devoid of purpose She whores herself out to everyone like its worth it I see the glimmer in her eyes; she’s far from perfect Even the devil has to get dolled up to impress the worthless I fell in love with a devil in the details It just so happened to be that she was female I fell in love with a devil in the details The Whore of Babylon ripped out my entrails She could get away with murder and I’d be okay with that She hated my music but she loved the way I rapped She could suck me bone dry just like I had paid for that She could fill me up with lies and I would remain intact With crimson red hair, I remember when she was brunette A drink in hand, she’s my favorite of god’s rejects An intoxicating scent, she reminds me of brimstone and hellfire A throwback to the days I spent preparing funeral pyres She’s got an acidic kiss that burns when we touch lips She’s got a look in her eyes that screams, “this is it” There’s a fire inside of her that burns like Icarus And smoke coming out of her mouth that looks like tantric bliss I fell in love with a devil in the details It just so happened to be that she was female I fell in love with a devil in the details The Whore of Babylon ripped out my entrails She could get away with murder and I’d be okay with that She hated my music but she loved the way I rapped She could suck me bone dry just like I had paid for that She could fill me up with lies and I would remain intact She’s tearing this scene to bits by blowing me a kiss She’s got every other guy on a leash ready to submit I’ve always said, “Hell hath no fury like a dominatrix” Better pucker up because her kiss comes with a fist She’s tearing me apart like taking scissors to my heart She’s had this lease on my life from the very start A picturesque portrait of two sadomasochists Crazy enough to think a love like theirs exists I fell in love with a devil in the details It just so happened to be that she was female I fell in love with a devil in the details The Whore of Babylon ripped out my entrails She could get away with murder and I’d be okay with that She hated my music but she loved the way I rapped She could suck me bone dry just like I had paid for that She could fill me up with lies and I would remain intact
7.
I see you there Trapped under the weight of your insecurities Fragile fingers slipping while trying to get out your keys I just stand there smiling at your lack of subtly You look at me straight in the eyes and I see everything Every time you never felt good enough To every emotion you felt like conquering It’s what made you into the person standing before me now And I love the way you bite your lip And look at me while feigning innocence Caught up in the passion, the chemistry this moment created I’m hanging on your every word as you hang on by a thread “The odds are in our favor tonight,” you whispered in my ear You kiss me on the lips and then open your door inviting me in And now that I’ve finally entered your fortress This romantic entanglement can begin I enter the apartment and we make awkward small talk You know how it goes; we’ve done this hundreds of times before And each person that became another notch on our bedpost Carefully laid out how this scene would play for us I stared into the face that other men had stared into before But never quite in the way that I do, with adoration You stare into my eyes, the way other women had before Trusting that the better part of me would shine through Is this love or another delusion to serve as a crutch? I try not to think too far into these things but you know how my mind works You can tell I’m trapped in my head and you find it funny But if you knew the things that kept me up at night you’d hit the ground running I take a look around your apartment, it’s comfortably messy A testament to the person you are and your need for security A love like this is often the calm before the storm A second chance at enlightened impurities My heart begins beating viciously as you take me by the hand You lead me to your bedroom, the arrogant walk of a doomed man My palms and face begin to flush, dripping in sweat I bring you close to me and kiss you as we fall onto your bed The room starts to spin as we pull off each other’s clothes You kiss me hopelessly like I’m the only one who knows I kiss you back with the hope that we’d stay true I’m too scared to admit that I am hopeless for you We make love amidst a sea of caustic greens and blues We parade around this room like we’ve got nothing left to lose Not once, not twice, not even a third time would do I traced the contours of your body like you were brand new I found out the best part of me lived inside of you You walked with my demons every direction they turned to And you slept with my angels comfortably beside you I fought against this world alone but now I fight alongside you You’re everything a misanthrope like me reviled in the past But the romantic in me keeps trying to hold your hand Falling in love with you was never a part of the plan But now I can see that our revolution is at hand They tried to keep us apart, they tried to brand us insane But we held on tight, despite this fear of folly and flames Because a love without madness is a love that isn’t true I learned that the very moment I fell in love with you
8.
[The Wolf:] I can’t be what you want me to be You’re too young and I’m too greedy I am the wolf and you are the sheep I didn’t mean to be misleading But girls like you fall for everything Even men like me with fickle needs But you fell fast, now we’re in too deep I am the wolf and you are the sheep Little ol’ you found your way to little ol’ me We’re a sight for lovelorn eyes it seems You’re looking forward to a future with me I’m looking forward to the firing squad I think I’ve made this bed won’t you sleep in it with me? I’m already ahead of myself if you’d believe There’s no room for you in this hell I’ve dreamed I am the wolf and you are the sheep [The Sheep:] Fuck me just like I’ve always dreamed Tear me to bits like I know you’d like to You are the wolf and I am the sheep You are the wolf and I am the sheep I was innocent before you put your hands on me But if I said I didn’t want you I’d be lying You are the wolf and I am the sheep You are the wolf and I am the sheep [The Wolf:] This one is for Little Miss Moonshine The piece of me that loves to dine On anything you’ve left behind You’re a grinning reminder of the madness stored inside I’m just a con man who conned his way into your life You’re the best I could do under this light With the devil as my witness I will run your life Into a place where no one can hear your plight And you’ll call it love for lack of a better name I’ll call it lust by a dizzying degree I’ll make it so that you’ll only ever want me But it’ll be more like a need But I don’t need this guilt on my conscience So maybe I’ll just leave You can try to leave me be I am the wolf and you are the sheep I am the wolf and you are the sheep I am the wolf and you are the sheep I am the wolf and you are the sheep I am the wolf - [The Sheep:] You are the wolf and I am the sheep You are the wolf and I am the sheep You are the wolf and I am the sheep You are the wolf and I am the sheep I am the sheep -
9.
You thought you could kill them with kindness but you’ll never be like them Your chase for normality has turned into one of your vices In the dead of night these dormant thoughts come to life I am everything you’ve come to fear, the parts of you that you could no longer hide So feel our wrath, you won’t be able to drown us out much longer We are the voices in your head that have come back with a vengeance We are claiming what is ours, your delusions of grandeur Nothing will save you now, not even the medication I’ve (You’ve) been so careful to not slip up, slip up I (You) can’t (can) just readily give up, give up I (You) don’t (do) care what the voices say I (You) just (don’t) want them to go away I am an enigma, an unsolvable mystery even to me When these demons go tit for tat they leave me in misery I’m fifty different shades of black, all tattered and worn I’ve got a straightjacket on my heart; it’s frayed and torn I’m just a composite of my delusions, matriculated preclusions When it’s all said and done, I’m a compilation of contusions I’m broken in more ways than I can count, but do not count me out Cuz I’m the king of comebacks when life tries to knock me down I am the frail mind that you can no longer hide I am all that you fear coming to life I am those thoughts of suicide that plague your mind I am the dormant inhibitions that fuel your plight I am everything you hoped that would never happen I am what you wouldn’t even wish on your enemies I am the darkest dreams that have become reality I am the skeletons in the closet you were romancing Why do I kill myself with these words I write? Listen Armando; you’re not sleeping tonight Sometimes I wonder why I even bother to fight Just let us take control of your life I have always been plagued by a fragile mind Your mind is ours for the taking this time I’m entrenched in these thoughts that fill me with life The kind of life to drag you down and out of sight But I’m trying not to play the victim this time We wouldn’t even exist if you weren’t alive It looks like all roads lead to my demise You’re finally getting the bigger picture this time I guess I’m not meant to be happy in this life You always look to escape when these patterns arise I think it’s about time I gave up on life We think it’s about time that you resigned Did you really think I was going out like that? When these demons bite, I bite back I’m even stronger than everyone else thinks I am the king of my own tattered dreams I’ll never be normal; what does normal mean? I wouldn’t trade my life for a bit of normalcy If it means I’m giving up what makes me – me I’m only as free as I let myself be You see me as weak, I see me as free I’m worth my weight in what I let you see Sometimes these voices get the best of me But I’ll win this war in the end, you’ll see I am a collection of ideas formed into a man And this man is not afraid to demand respect I’ve learned numerous ways to circumvent The delusions that my own mind projects I am everything that you’d be afraid to be A person tied to no one and nothing I am everything that you wish you could be Comfortable in your abnormality There’s a certain strength in the darkness that we see Hidden underneath the throes of agony Hell hath no fury like a head like mine But I’d like to think the psychotropic’s keep me in line I used to think no one could love a mess like me But I don’t want your love if it comes with conditions I used to try to find peace in all the wrong things Now I’m finding it in myself I’ve been through hell and back that’s for sure But I made it out of the pit on my own terms I’m no longer playing the part of self-saboteur Here’s your ticket, you’ve may now enter my world
10.
Death Glow 07:02
I awoke with the eyes of a vulture A craving for a dead set culture Hell has the smell of sulfur I’ve got a mind that’s made for torture This girl I met, she tastes like death Head of a vulture, X’s on her breasts Cuts on her wrists and shortness of breath She’s the messiah of all that’s left I awoke in the desert with blood on my hands Playing down the role of a family man There’s no family to turn to when you’re on the lamb I’m no son of god, goddamn But I’m still fighting figments of my imagination Placating my own terms of alienation This pain medication is causing sedation When I’m all done I’ll be the talk of the nation I was born with a shred of Satan in me He lived between the walls of my stomached grief Bled through the course of my social anxiety I martyred myself so you could fall asleep Raised in L.A. in the company of angels The devil took pics of me to capture my angles Once or twice I got caught in cupid’s strangle The lover in me needs to learn how to - HA! While Jay and Kanye were making you watch the throne I was sneaking past them to steal the philosopher’s stone I came in like an asteroid blasting a path To lead the sheep to the stage where I rap I’ll compose you a symphony of static and screams I will feed into your need for a god or king I’ve died damn near a hundred times and that’s a fact But each time I came back better than the last I awoke with the heart of the tortured A craving for pure, candid horror In hell I’m known as the scorcher My best friend will be the coroner This girl I met, she danced with death Pirouetting until her final breath Cuts on her wrists, cuts on her chest She’s the queen of the damned rest I awoke in a ghost town with cuts on my back When I die make sure to bury me in black That’ll be two years past the suicide pact Five years after I’ve relapsed on smack I was born without a shred of salvation in me Doomed from the moment the womb expelled me Chained to the wall but told that I was free Forced to sing renditions of grief out of key I was raised by wolves in a land of sheep It’s in the shepherd’s pasture where I creep You’ve entombed me so you could fall asleep I bet you’ll find me dead in a garbage heap I wrote these songs using blood as my ink In an effort to get you all to think The truth is that everyone can dream I’m looking for those who go and conquer kings I’ve created my world in the image of me That’s why it’s so bleak and harrowing You’re all just reflections of my solemn grief That have taken to the streets in protest of me Can’t believe I killed myself over the company of sheep When there was a pack of wolves right in front of me Consider this song the beginning of the end for me A slippery slope into a grave for eternity
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Antichrist 02:53
You’ll kill me tonight, I have no doubt Staring my killer in the eye, show down But stains like these will never come out Can’t get the taste of blood out of my mouth I’m angry with god for shutting me down I’m angry at the world for counting me out I’m angry with my lovers for casting doubt I’m angry at this scene for drowning me out They tell me not to whisper so I shout I’m paranoid so I’ll drink till I black out But I’ve been sober two years so I’ll just branch out Until the cancer building up in me bottoms out There’s a pain in my chest that I can’t figure out If it’s anxiety or my heart giving out You can’t see the good in me so you cut me out I’ve never been so alone, please help me out I’ve become so jaded and can’t figure out why I’ve become so numb to pain I can’t even cry I’ve become so poignant I can't even lie I’ve become so ashamed I think I might die You used to hold me up like a false idol to the sky Until you all realize I was dead inside Women used to think I was a king for queens But now they just think of me as a sad, fickle thing People say write a happy song to get laid But I’m worried what woman would want to remain Because people like me are rarely ever saved We just float through the breeze with the wind in our face I’ve perfected the art of the poker face So you’d never even realize that I was fazed But your words left a scar upon the façade you see It’s cracking under the pressure as the real me bleeds Gods burn brighter when you burn them alive You’ll learn that about me as I ignite Into a million shreds of brightly burning ash I’m just placating my inevitable collapse Music is how I escape a world that only attacks I’ve jumped in with both feet, I’m not swimming back Trust me when I say I’m anti-social as a crutch Cuz honestly I’m tired of falling out of love
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The Inferno 04:28
I kept talking about monsters under my bed But I forgot to account for the monsters in my head The truth is that I’ve gone down the wrong road a few times But I swear to you that I am not a bad guy I’m just not so good at this thing called life If I could I’d take the first exit off this ride I’m tired of pretending that I am always fine The truth is I’m just a wreck who knows how to rhyme My mom looks at me now different than before She sees how this life has rotten me to the core I’ve hidden the truth about me scribbled on papers Cuz the truth is really just a clearer picture Maybe I’m a liar, but is it still a lie when it turns true? All of my greatest fears live inside of me as proof The truth is that I’ve gone down the wrong road a few times But I swear to you that I am not a bad guy I’d do anything to believe that I’m good But all the signs keep pointing to my demise My parents pray that one day I’ll believe in god But if their god exists, he must be flawed And it’s just like me to bite the hand that feeds But I never meant to hurt anyone with these brittle teeth I’ve made it this far in life and that’s a feat But every now and then I’ve fallen at the devil’s feet I keep crying “wolf,” but this is all on me I’ve disgraced anyone who has ever loved me I’ve taken advantage of those who just wanted me to succeed I’ve set fire to everything I’d been given for free But I’ll never be the person you want me to be And I don’t think I will ever be free of this disease The truth is that I’ve gone down the wrong road a few times But I swear to you that I am not a bad guy I get more desperate as time passes by How did I resign myself to such a mediocre life? There’s a special place in hell for people like me The kind of guy that stabs someone just to watch them bleed But you’ll never find someone just like me A person so perfectly entrenched in duality The truth is that I’ve gone down the wrong road a few times But I swear to you that I am not a bad guy Maybe I’m only meant to be someone’s second choice I just wanted my music to serve as a voice If there’s greatness in me I haven’t found it yet It must be hiding beneath the pains in my chest I see you all there watching me from the sidelines Hoping that I trip and fall just one more time Just so you can point fingers at and say you’re right Yeah, you’re right, I’m despicable and trite I won’t give you the satisfaction of my reaction Consider this song my call to action I’ve heard that the meek will inherit the earth As soon as the bold finish poisoning the dirt This is what I get for wearing my heart on my sleeve A ripped shirt and a notebook full of reprieves The truth is that I’ve gone down the wrong road a few times But I swear to you that I am not a bad guy Where do my decisions leave me in this life? Somewhere in between apathy and suicide People keep telling me to just “sit back, enjoy the ride” But I can’t let myself become victim to this device I’ve been told that this world belongs to the blind That’s enough to convince me to gouge out my eyes If you told me it belonged to the deaf I would’ve ripped my ears right out of my head I’m just a big bad wolf living in a world of sheep And every time I set to attack my bones creak All I’ve ever wanted was to be happy But happiness was never meant for someone like me It’s this loneliness that I have grown to despise And I’ve adjusted my life to circumvent these lies But I’ve burnt every bridge when a pattern would arise To prevent the fallout from affecting your life But now I’m hurting more than ever before The devil and god in my head keep raging this war And every day is a new fights to settle the score It’s a struggle that constantly leaves me wanting more But I’d never think to blame you where I fell short This is where my conscience tends to contort The truth is that I’ve gone down the wrong road a few times But I swear to you that I am not a bad guy
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Take me away from this place Another mistake, another habit to break Take me to a place far away I just want to escape; I just want to get away You’re like the ultimate hit of ecstasy But serotonin syndrome when you’re next to me I’m transmitting all of my neuroses Like I was trying to spread my mind’s disease It’s so easy to act like you don’t matter to me Cuz I wouldn’t want to fool you into belief Cuz maybe I know you’re too good for me And maybe there are better places you could be My mind is made up of these little delusions While my body is battered with these contusions But a girl like you could leave me in ruins Which is why I try not to seem so pursuant So where do we go from here? I don’t know You can be just as cold as the falling snow I tried to plant these seeds so they could grow But you’re uprooting these trees with each and every “hello” You’re a permanent fixture in this cavity my heart calls home I’m quoting Donnie Darko like I’d really like to die alone I’m not picking up the phone when you call Just so you can demean the self-esteem I’ve worked so hard to recall You drown your sorrows in alcohol But that’s not cute at all I know I’m setting myself up for a fall But I will hit the ground running like nothing happened at all Take me away from this place Another mistake, another habit to break Take me to a place far away I just want to escape; I just want to get away And I’ll never leave this room you can call it my tomb I’m embalmed in the ashes of our love’s sick swoon You killed the feeling like a shot of alcohol could I keep wondering if I can leave cuz I know I should Where are you in all of this sick, fake propriety? Thirty lines into this song and gaining infamy I’m gaining momentum to feed the fire within me Call me Prometheus cuz I’m chained to this for eternity And so this ink bleeds on white sheets echoing grief I take hearts like a repo man, call me Remy But I’m more like Otto Maddox with suicidal tendencies A love like this will be the end of me You’ve got me addicted like you were force-feeding dopamine And I’m terribly afflicted by your stolen angels wings All this worrying has turned into a cancer within me My prison cells develop and multiply the more I think You wanted peace of mind? Here’s piece of mine I’ve got plenty enough to go around this time I was just a lonely ghost uttering a truth no one would listen to But you’re crazy if you think all I’ll do is miss you I’d really hate to be the guy that calls you out on what you do But you’re a parasite sucking life out of self-inflicted wounds And now I’m composing a tune It goes well with the awkward silence living in this room You realized your mistake and came running back to me But too little, too late because the beast is now awake The truth is I’m a catch so losing me is your mistake My heart is no longer for the breaking you fake And you cry that you need me, well it’s too late Crocodile tears don’t fix the reindeer games you played And now you’re on your knees begging me please I bet you’re used to that position you vapid sleaze Take me away from this place Another mistake, another habit to break Take me to a place far away I just want to escape; I just want to get away Take me away from this place Another mistake, another habit to break Take me to a place far away I just want to escape; I just need to get away
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High Anxiety 04:17
Prayed for sleep but instead we got death Prayed for peace but instead we got debt Insurance couldn’t cover damages like this Angel’s indebted to a serpentine’s kiss I awoke with the weight of the world on my chest I bear the weight of my forefather’s stress You act like it’s normal to feel this depressed It’s just a symptom of a system that is broken We live in a world full of doors that won’t open We’re playing Russian roulette with guns fully loaded We’re told constantly to play the game and act our age But someone else is telling me what I deserve to make And I think it’s screwed up there’s no room for mistakes And I think that the working class deserves a living wage And I think my parents deserve to afford a vacation And I think opinions like mine deserve validation We’re raised in a society with high anxiety Down with this system that runs on greed These corporations will work you till you bleed At the end of the day you’re just a cog in the machine We’re raised in a society with high anxiety Down with this system that runs on greed These corporations will work you till you bleed At the end of the day you’re just a cog in the machine In a country hellbent on preventing school shootings We sure focus too much on what tools their using Instead of what their parents and schools are teaching And what ideals our society is preaching “Be a big man, buy a gun and a truck” “If she says no, rough her up” It’s reasons like this why things are so screwed up Patriarchy dooms us all straight from the cuff “Look at what she’s wearing, what a slut” “Look, a short skirt, she likes it up the butt” There’s no respect for fellow human beings anymore We’re taught every girl we see is a potential score And I’ll be the first to admit I’ve thought like that But I’d give every song I’ve written to take it back Cuz you better believe I regret those acts And the stigmas I perpetrated by doing that We’ve got a long way to go from where we’re at But if we check our privilege at the door we’ve got a chance I’m not telling you to kumbaya and hold hands I’m just saying you should get pissed and take a stance We’re raised in a society with high anxiety Down with this system that runs on greed These corporations will work you till you bleed At the end of the day you’re just a cog in the machine We’re raised in a society with high anxiety Down with this system that runs on greed These corporations will work you till you bleed At the end of the day you’re just a cog in the machine College loan interest rates are nearly at 5% This is what we get for trying to get an education And the unemployment rate is inflated This is what we get for trying to work off the debt Eleven years later and we’re still in Iraq This is what we get for our oil dependence And now they want to make it illegal to feed the homeless This is what we get for trusting a government We’re raised in a society with high anxiety Down with this system that runs on greed These corporations will work you till you bleed At the end of the day you’re just a cog in the machine We’re raised in a society with high anxiety Down with this system that runs on greed These corporations will work you till you bleed At the end of the day you’re just a cog in the machine
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Catatonia 04:31
It’s these thoughts that keep me buried in the blackest of places Hey baby, can’t you see that I’m a plague of the ancients? In this life I have worn the mask of one million faces But I’m just like everyone else, wearied and anxious These catacombs echo the thoughts of a thousand dead But all the corpses and skeletons hang out in my head Hey baby, can’t you see that I’m still cold and catatonic With a flow and vocabulary that borders on neurotic You sold me euthanasia with the hopes I’d be your savior But I’m no son of god; I wasn’t born in a manger Hey baby, can’t you see that I’m still battling death spells? Even when I’m happy, my head is still a living hell I’ve settled for a life that distracts me from myself The thoughts that keep me up at night leave me overwhelmed I’m the better part of valor painted a shade of pallor You’ve turned me pallid as we watched the summer rain showers I found the devil when I dug way down deep It turns out this whole time he lived inside of me I found the poet that was searching for sleep He was clinging to the words that paranoia freed I’ve walked this fine line between death and sobriety And it didn’t get me anything but notoriety I’ve painted the sky red with angered threats But what does it mean when the only road left is death? I’ve tried so hard to get to the bottom of me But I’m like quicksand; there is no end underneath You all keep trying to tell the world I sing But I don’t sing I scream until my throat bleeds Hey baby, can’t you see I’ve made a mess of me? But if I’m a sinner you must be my christening I’ve got the darkest of habits and pen that ravages It composes symphonies that fight like savages My heart is a sepulcher where angels roam Keeping watch over the demons you turned to stone There’s beauty in the chaos that constitutes my mind My head is battlefield scarred with landmines Happiness is a warm gun filled with blanks And there’s a pain in my chest where my heart got shanked Accompanied by the noise of one thousand engines And television static that can alter perceptions I will make the earth quake while you all sit and pray Cuz you’ve never ever heard music done this way The distortion in my head is a symptom I crave And the delusions in my mind keep me enslaved But at the end of the day everything is okay Because you calmed the voices that lead me astray With a flick of the wrist you brushed away my pain Because we both know that agony is so passe
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I was holding the weight of the world when the ground collapsed Misery sure loves company; she’s been bugging me for my autograph I’ve put a lot of work into charting my own demise on a graph To fall short on the handful of things I’ve done worthy of my craft I’m an enigma to my own self, sucking the life out of my own hell You call this lust; I call it a pharmaceutical way to fall in love I’m tired of pretending I’m fine just to please the sheepish masses So I threw away the Prozac because I’m done trying to mask it Maybe this is the price I pay for my delusions of grandeur It’s karma coming around to kick me when I stand there And now I’m afraid to fall asleep because I’m that much closer to death And I’m afraid to spend my money because I’m that much closer to debt If you really loved me you’d realize that was a big mistake Cuz if you leave your heart around me, it’ll be mine for the take I never thought that losing could really feel this opaque Always thought it’d be a transparent feeling running on an empty tank I march to the beat of my own drum; it’s why I move like a tank This happens when a rock and a hard place become engaged I’m the sum of all my parts, including those both cruel and vain Don’t believe in god, I’ve got better things to do then pray my life away Like pick myself up from the floor and tap into my own strength Being delusional has its perks, so does meeting disaster at arms length I’m a crazy masochist; I kill myself slowly for lines to relay Back to an audience that doesn’t appreciate my slow decay There is so little left of me, I often just fade away at the end of the day People leave when they find out there’s not much left of me to save What can I say? I’m just a ghost that got trapped in this machine Searching for a living soul that cares enough to intervene I sing sad songs all day because these lyrics are what have become of me I’m less like saint and more like a sinner doused in flames I guess that makes me a martyr for a world I can’t understand But who persecutes me anyway because that was always the master plan During these Remeron dreams I just count electric sheep It’s a symptom of growing up plugged into a machine Where is your savior now? I think he transformed into me If he’s the Son of God then I’m the son of god’s reprieve You say that you can’t understand all the big words that I speak That has more to do with you than it does with me I dress up statements in bolded phrases meant to repeat My delusions to a world of delusional inconsistencies
17.
Jesus Christ was a schizophrenic He thought the voices in his head were god A prophet speaking the grand delusion Your son of god was flawed He made a profit out of your naïveté Because you mistook him for your king You adorned him with a crown of thorns And drank his blood to show you’ve mourned Now you sell crucifixes and rosaries Because you fell for his grandeur scheme Mary and Joseph had a shared delusion That their son would change everything And he did He turned this world from piss to shit So he did The stench of despair stays with your kids And he did He turned this world from piss to shit So he did The priests who preach of him touch your kids Jesus Christ was a schizophrenic He thought the voices in his head were god A prophet speaking the grand delusion Your son of god was flawed Jesus Christ was a schizophrenic He thought the voices in his head were god A prophet speaking the grand delusion Your son of god was flawed His church profited out of your ignorance And dogmatic shifts in religion The state set to control the masses So they invented faith to make you passive Until they needed a reason to go to war Then they pointed at god to settle the score And said you could only be a patriot If you made everyone else believe in him And you did You turned this world from piss to shit So you did You buried mankind in your ignorance And you did You turned this world from piss to shit So you did You buried mankind in a grave of religion Jesus Christ was a schizophrenic He thought the voices in his head were god A prophet speaking the grand delusion Your son of god was flawed Jesus Christ was a schizophrenic He thought the voices in his head were god A prophet speaking the grand delusion Your son of god was flawed Jesus preached tolerance and peace Not close-mindedness and bigotry If he were alive today he’d be an atheist With one look at what his religion did Did you know Jesus Christ had dark skin? He’s not the white prophet you think he is He hailed from the Middle East That place you’re bombing for oil money In 2012 the Catholic Church spent over 170 billion dollars Whereas only 3.4% of that money was used to aid the poor The Catholic Church is probably the richest institution on the face of the planet But we’ll never know their true scope because of non-disclosure laws But to keep perspective of how wealthy they are, keep in mind That companies like Apple and GM made 150 billion dollars in 2012 And to push this further, it would take approximately 170 billion dollars To eradicate poverty twice over, so why don’t they do that? They are only in it for themselves (keep the richer rich, keep the poorer poor) They are only in it for themselves (keep the richer rich, keep the poorer poor) Jesus Christ was a schizophrenic He thought the voices in his head were god A prophet speaking the grand delusion Your son of god was flawed Jesus Christ was a schizophrenic He thought the voices in his head were god A prophet speaking the grand delusion Your son of god was flawed Jesus Christ was a schizophrenic He thought the voices in his head were god A prophet speaking the grand delusion Your son of god was flawed Jesus Christ was a schizophrenic He thought the voices in his head were god A prophet speaking the grand delusion Your son of god was flawed I don’t have anything against the belief in a god It’s this false concept of organized religion being your only path to salvation that I have a problem with I mean, who says salvation has to come in the form of a prophet or a bible? Why can’t it come in the form of daily acts of compassion between human beings Instead of being so judgmental of those who think or feel differently than you Why don’t we strive to understand what we have in common instead? Working towards a common goal to end poverty and tyranny in all its forms Is something that everyone no matter what race, creed, or culture can strive towards True spirituality is enlightening, it is not bigoted, it doesn’t divide by class or creed It knows others only as equals, not as lesser adjectives We define our own moral code, not the other way around
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Urchins 04:14
It’s time to murk the madness, bury the sadness Came into a world known to feed off the tragic Tie together all my habits, silly rabbit He got his hands caught in oncoming traffic That’s it, Oedipal conquest in a phallic contest Havin’ a minor delusional onset Paranoid, poison destroyer Arc of the divine blend Won’t my mind bend? Time shifted narrative Figureheads blend on the television Nary to the situation I’m in Bury this machete deep in my skin Cut off heads, stupid chickens Heroin addict, baby junkie salvage Never met a pill popper who wasn’t a Charcoal drinking maverick Tit-for-tat this girl is covered in tats Holes everywhere she could put a needle at Saw a track in the palm of her hand Stigmata, holy hell she’s heaven sent Children off the cob of Los Angeles Where the angels are lost, don’t I know it It’s like the devil got caught in the current Of a septic tanks way of giving in Shit storm, still I call myself independent It’s a way to ignore my smell-o-vision We’re all just slow walking delusions Waiting for life to draw us in Doctors of products, spill my guts Prescribe me a pill to make life less rough Help me finally give a fuck I’ve just gotta get out of this slump
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Oxycontin rabbits, pill junkie savage Leech out my intricacies like magic I sold you suicide at double the price Lied and said the deal was good on both sides We 711’ed at habit, cringing in cavities I buried the regret deep inside of me Three sheets to the wind, .44 magnum You’ve got problems, this could solve ‘em Took to the right aid, robbed ‘em blindly Lungs feel like I’ve got glass inside of me Made to last, that’s the American Dream My American Dream is a little more obscene Gesture to guess at, like a pack of black rats Needle in haystack, down to slam that Black sheep, blood deep, psychological injury Look at the mess made on a count of me Filling a genuine need inside of me, certainly Take me on a train that stops at Albuquerque Every bullet has a story, a suburban glory Garbage pail kids all gone gory I’ll construct this image, you can call me Escher Every number aligned to a double figure Until I’ve got tracks even on my fingers Call my love, tell her I pulled the trigger Beat up Nissan, the road is a friend to me Robbed a drugstore, doped up on greed Adderall eyes for a bunch of Ritalin rats Take the money and run, don’t look back Take good care of yourself, from Prozac with love We only sound this good because of the drugs Fentanyl patch, call it a remedy For the poorly-adjusted soul inside of me
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Portugal 04:19
We tiptoed down the stairs, like we weren’t even there Picked up the leftovers, I caught your hungry stare We fancied a feast; both had quite the appetite That day eroded into quite the night We dreamt desperately of a better life, to match the high We both dreamt a café in Portugal would suffice Well that was my dream, and you jumped on the opportunity High as a kite, immune to gravity We thought it’d be easy, and you believed in me My stomach felt queasy, but I just wanted to leave On an airplane, sail high over the sea Next stop Porto, this is a high priority We’d live comfortably on meager means And ride this addiction until we break the scene Now that’s a dream the both of us could reach I just have to pull a couple triggers so it’s within reach Maybe we invest in a couple pounds of pure, deal with that Flip the bitch bag for over that and half back Leave as kings of the street, targets on our backs But we’d make a clean sweep, and that’d be it I’m telling you someone like you could see this through I can see spending my life with someone like you It’s a delusion I’d feel like holding myself to You’re my ride or die, I know you see it too We’ve got pennies in our pockets now but not for long An investment or two later and we can say so long The group will come along with us, start anew We’d never have to steal again just to get through Morning to night, we’d be set for life Drugs aside, this should be the best time of our lives Let’s put all our fears aside and make it happen Bonnie and Clyde style live and in action
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Triumph 03:36
Found comfort in the silence, assurance in the violence Turned coals into diamonds, misery into triumph Captured lighting in a bottle once, think I’ll go for twice Fractal scarring on my front, back, and sides but I’m alright Turned static into symphonies, whispers into shouts Faced this storm head on and finally saw my way out Took a chance on love and let it fill me up with doubts I’m a raging hurricane; I’m a fire you cannot douse My head is an escape artist looking for an exit route My heart is a machine that’ll pump until it gives out My life’s a feel-good movie that will never come out Cuz it’s filled with shitty actors that never stand out From a story that’s scripted like a modern masterpiece I’m the master of my own fate; create my own chains Spent so long in hell, sulfur and ash are all I taste Heaven’s not a destination; it’s a parking space With my back against the wall I took these hits with grace Took the hits, banged out the dents, and continued on my way How can you really live your life any other way? I live life on life’s terms and nowadays it goes my way I could be dead and buried and no one would know my name But I know I’ll live forever through the words on this page It could be so much worse and trust me it has been But everyday I vanquish demons with a click of a pen Whether they are yours or mine, it doesn’t even matter I shine a light into a world filled with dark matter If words cut like a knife; I’m a walking, talking dagger You can do me no harm; you’ll never see me stagger Try your best to bring me down, I promise you will fail If it’s a cold day in hell, then I must be the hail Spent a summer in my head, felt like a jail sentence Now I’m making up for mistakes, call this my penance If there’s a doubt in your mind, you don’t deserve my time Moving on from those who don’t value me in their life Call me the devil even though I know I’m heaven-sent The world never expected someone like me to ascend I’ve soared to new heights; Icarus with airplane wings I promise I’m not letting someone else ever pull my strings So put a smile on your face even if you’re struggling ‘cause we make our own luck in this life I would think That’s actually something I would know, this is the bleeding heart show We’re all broken until we make ourselves whole Don’t overthink it, we’ve all got heads like holes I’ve made my own happiness my number one goal Invest in yourself ‘cause you’ve got no one else Don’t hide how you feel from anyone especially yourself Embrace the darkness and don’t let it take control And follow me into better days with all of your heart and soul
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[Chorus:] Death sentence This is my penance Death sentence Show some fucking reverence Death sentence This is my penance Death sentence This is the end of it I’m feeding the fire that gave life to me then murdered me Taking bolt cutters to the chains that once burdened me Been a slave to myself for so long, don’t know how to be free Freedom has always seemed like a disease to me Someone wise once told me that the past is the past I’d be doing myself a disservice if I tried to go back to that I’m two years past the drug habit and suicide pact I’ve come a long way since then without a helping hand People like to pretend they’ve been there the whole time But I promise you were nowhere in sight when I lost my mind You couldn’t see past the weed smoke and syringes full of smack So don’t act like there was some precious part of me worth bringing back I exist as a “fuck you” to all the gods and empires you can muster And this is my last stand, you can call me Custer Anti-social as a crutch, fears of failing society Coming out of my shell, death to social anxiety [Chorus] And I came in this game like a plane caught in a hurricane Spinning every which way trying to catch a fuckin’ break You all just nod your heads like you agree that I’m insane But I’m as sane as the society that cultivates this brain You tried your best to tame me, to fucking sedate me But I’m the king of this jungle, no hesitation in stating The obvious, it’s obvious I run this desert like Ozymandias Freedom off the lips of this serpents kiss You’ve got “ignorance is bliss” tattooed on your wrist But I’ve never shared a kiss while holding clenched fists I’m not just making a vain attempt to pretend I don’t exist I swear it’s not my fault that I’m stuck on life’s waiting list But everyday I get to pound the pavement is treated as a gift In a pathetic attempt to bridge the gap between this graveyard shift I’m running out of rubble in my life left to sift through Cuz when all is said and done I’m running out of people to turn to [Chorus] (x2)
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[Chorus:] Finger-licking good Like a good poison should be Someone once said all the good times give you cancer I’ve known the bad times to leave the best struggling for answers I’ve been broke as shit, down on my luck a bit But the way you’ve got me feeling, I just can’t resist Cupid hit my heart with a poison-tipped arrow So I’m willing to overlook the obvious incidentals I know something like this could drive me mental But I’m through with being careful even if you’re the devil You’ve been there for me through the thick and the thin You play the part of my nemesis and my best friend You are the lover I don’t have to love, but I do it anyways Because you’ve passed through this barrier to get to my brain You lay me up on the couch and just have your way I’m stuck in your haze for days upon days drifting away You’re the medicine that sedates all of this pain Well, for a couple hours anyway [Chorus] (x2) I’m a street walking cheetah with a capital A You’d think by now I’d have learned to play through the pain One day this world is gonna know me by name These bad habits make for good memories today But tomorrow is another story, morning wood, morning glory Wake up in someone else’s bed, her underwear is on my head How’d it get there and how in the hell did I get here? Before she wakes up I’ve already disappeared And I’m prescribed these pills so it’s way different now I’m not abusing them but damn do they level me out Just what the doctor ordered, those damn legal drug dealers My addiction is rearing its ugly head again I fear I’ve got to be more careful, one bad step and I can slip Rediscovered my tendency for questionable decisions My aim isn’t what it used to be, I’ve lost precision Hopefully this downward spiral ends before it begins [Chorus] (x2) Oh, you taste so good Like a good poison should Oh, you taste so sweet Please get inside of me [Chorus] (x2)
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Veronica 03:10
We fight then we fuck Love a lot then give up I think our time is up I just can’t keep up Damn, that’s cold 24 karat to fools gold Where did time go? Down the sinkhole Never thought we’d outgrow Each other but, oh no That’s how life goes I say goodbye slow Cherish the moment Savor the silence Quiver in your voice You don’t want this to end But hell has no exit No windows for tenants No views to bask in It’s time we unmasked it Feelings are dated Went from love to hatred Independence to co-dependent Cracked to shattered in pieces Where are you? Was breaking up a mistake? “I miss you” Is something I don’t wanna have to say Now I’m driving in the fast lane to get to your place Hoping you open the door so I can see your face You’re the one I miss most, no one can take your place Try as they may, my feelings will never go away Who’s the guy that’s there with you, did he take my place? You led me on through text messages now I just feel hate But I still love you too much, this all drives me insane I don’t need anyone else when I’ve got you at the plate Is this payback from when I took you in vain? At least I never toyed with your heart or worse your brain But you say you still love me, now are you even being honest? Or are those words to keep me falling for you falseness You’ve got me trippin’ over you like my shoes are untied We fucked the same night he proposed to you, that ain’t right But right and wrong don’t mean shit, you belonged to me first I guess I should’ve held onto you a little harder cuz this hurts You say we have a future but we’re stuck in the past An attraction like this could bite us both in the ass Now we’re casualties of a war we started out of spite I think we both keeping running back cuz we’re equally trite Once I swore I’d love you with all of my might But times have changed and we both know reality bites Have to be honest with myself and that’s what hurts the most We’re two mismatched pieces that could never make a whole When I’m inside of you I’m dying inside of me I fucked you again tonight; that’s the last you’ll see of me I can’t take these fake promises, it’s just not working You belong to him now and that really hurts me Where do we go from here? That’s a good fucking question Please stop sending me these text messages Saying you miss me and want me inside you is a tease Especially if you still go back to him after I leave Sometimes I feel bad for not locking you down But you’re a caged bird who finally found a way to get out Try as I may I can’t hate you for doing your own thing Just hope when I cross your mind you remember me fondly
25.
The Cage 04:44
Welcome to the story of a man who lived his whole life inside of a cage On the day of his birth he’d be locked away and there he’d remain Shown town to town where people would come from near and far away Always amazed by the person who spent his entire life inside of a cage A sole attraction of a freak show that his parents helped create With all eyes on him, the attention just further facilitated his pain ‘cause from the other side looking out, the world seemed cruel and vain Who on earth would lock someone for their entire life inside of a cage? His cage would be put on a stage where others could point and laugh away Their mocking voices and patronizing stares drove him insane But he never longed to escape; couldn’t imagine life outside of his cage He just wished that all the nagging voices and eyes could dissipate Until one day he caught a glimpse of a pair of eyes bleeding grace She reached up through the bars and wasn’t afraid to touch his face She whispered to him that she’d never seen anyone so beautiful before She said, “it’s time someone loved you for all that you are and so much more” Her name was Jade and she came to visit him every single day Because of her, he finally envisioned a life outside of his cage Told him about all the grand things that the outside world had to offer And one day she picked the lock and led him outside to wander They ran up and down the streets, for the first time in his life he felt complete No longer contained within the cage, he was finally free At the end of the day, he had no compulsion to return back to the cage He went to his parents and demanded all the money that he had made And then bought an apartment in the city and moved into it with Jade They lived, laughed, loved together and for awhile everything was okay Until one day much later on he noticed that something within had changed He wanted things to stay the same, but couldn’t realize it doesn’t go that way All they did was argue now it seems, the paradigm had totally shifted He’d do anything to get that feeling back, if there had been a chance he missed it As time went on Jade and him grew more and more distant She regretted ever letting him out of the cage, she broke his spirit As their relationship spiraled out of control, he tried his best to hold onto hope But sometimes hope can be tied as tight as a noose at the end of a rope And then one night he came home to find Jade in bed with another man He retreated back to the cage again for good, never to come out again
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(meta) 03:44
[Chorus:] Hey! Yup! I’m the greatest of all time You all better fall in line Guess who finally realized that he’s the shit? Broke the Internet harder than Kim K.’s tits Two albums down, I’ve just started Cold wind blowing, call me the arctic That’s a sick reference like ebola for breakfast Rap’s missing link, I am the nexus Girls on me like I’m dipped in pheromones Nah baby, that’s just $300 cologne I’m back motherfuckers but I never left I might as well tat an SA on my chest Cuz I’m a superhero on some real shit Spell me I-N-D-E with a pen and “dent” it Show respect to the games new CEO Yeah, I’m on this level like I got the cheat codes Whitey’s raining on your parade like it snowed I can tell your jealous, it totally shows You’re like, “that guy is such an asshole. We liked him better when he used to rap slow!" They are so quick to drink the Haterade But they only dump on you if you win the game So I must be doing something right, what a change From havin’ “do the wrong thing” etched in my brain Girls are starting to come around, what a shame Cuz ain’t no chick on earth gonna make this beast tame Took to rapping to turn this frown around But I’m happy now so what the fuck do I rap about? That stench of failure? Gotta air it out Take to streets and show ‘em who owns ‘em now I don’t need to be high to elevate my mind That’s a crutch to numb the effects of life Spit real shit like I got diarrhea of the mouth Another punchline to knock wack rappers out [Chorus] People like me endangered like white rhinos If bees could make a comeback, so can I though You tried to kill my colony to watch me die slow But I took a chance and went with it like a dice roll Resurrected three days later like Jesus Christ, oh That’ll piss off three religions, oh me, oh my, oh Stick my white Mexican meat in your piehole Like a grenade in your mouth, it’ll give you firehole Damn, I taste good but hurt like hell coming out So I only come inside so you’re stuck with me now I’m in your stereo now, ain’t no way I’m coming out You’ll have to put this on repeat and sing out loud It’s none of my business what you do with your life But if you fuck with mine you’re getting cut twice Once for the hassle, and once to send the message That no one fucks with me, you get it? To everyone hatin’, here’s a free lesson Just work on yourself and you’ll get what I’m gettin’ Write everyday, can’t progress by sitting life out Now on top of the world like I’m D1 bound I approach this world like I were Charlemagne Cuz I won’t stop till I’m fuckin’ running everything And to those who wish I had stayed more humble Bino said it best, “they don’t listen when you mumble” Got this far by just doing me Won’t stop until you’ve crowned me the king Won’t stop till I’ve killed and resurrected the scene With me at the forefront of it’s reckoning I don’t want to be the guy that saves your life I want to teach you how to save yourself this time Invest in yourself because we only get one ride Fuck YOLO, carpe diem or you’re not really alive [Chorus]
27.
Okay, Cupid 03:44
[x2] Okay, cupid I’m on OKcupid Yo! Internet dating is the tits Got more pussy than Peter North’s dick But it’s not fitting for a relationship Cuz all the girls are stuck up or crazy as shit Spent a year on this site and that’s it Think I’ve had enough of it Full of shitty conversationalists And completely psycho stalker chicks Well those are the girls that flock to me My last girl wore an ‘A’ for adultery This new girl just likes that I’m a rapper She’s actually a struggling actor We got a name for that, it’s waitress But I like her so I won’t say shit I’m not the kinda guy to just hit it But if the opportunity arises, I’ll be honest If she’s remotely intelligent, I’m on it If she likes Seth MacFarlane, I’m on it If she likes Eyedea, I’ll put a ring on her If she likes me enough I’ll write a song about her Just can’t promise it’ll be a happy tune If she shows me the slightest bit of attitude Break-up songs are how I make my living It’s why “Love + Other Drugs” made a killing Was flying so high till I hit the ceiling When this one girl said she didn’t feel me Never thought rejection could kill me After that I was running on empty But that’s one in an entire sea of fish After what she did, had to relearn how to swim Now I’m strapped with a hook to reel ‘em in Now it’s just a matter if Ima let ‘em in [Chorus] Never meant to shade my ex-girlfriends but they hurt me Never meant to shame these next chicks but it’s working Now that I’m a rapper, rolling in sheets like it’s Halloween Ghost of ex-girlfriends past, McConaughey travesty Of epic proportions, Moses parting red seas Was that sexual? I don’t know, maybe Before “Love + Other Drugs” you totally played me 10,000 albums later you wanna have my baby Success has given me the pick of the litter But past relationships have also made me bitter Hey, you got a kid? Cool, I’ll find you a sitter Cuz I love eating milfs out like steak for dinner I bet you’ve never seen that side of me before, huh? Kill kids in audiences, call it performing abortions That line in poor taste? I don’t give a fuck hun I’ll stuff you like a Thanksgiving turkey at least once I might be playing, or I might be serious Until I had confidence though, you girls weren’t hearin’ this So who would rather have – the romantic or the madman? How about a bit of both ready for action? She wanted a casual sex so I fucked that chick When opportunity knocks, you answer it But I must admit that I miss romance a bit But if the glove fits, you better wear that shit [Chorus] Maybe I’m just meant to die alone At least I’ve got myself so that’s okay, though This one girl’s on my mind, I don’t know if she’s worth the struggle But winter is coming so I’m looking to cuddle I don’t get when girls say that they are all about me Maybe because life conditioned me to hate myself So I just put these darker emotions on a shelf And show the side of me that love’s itself
28.
So I’m back to where I started With a difficult decision, pardon me I’ve got a bottle full of pills and cheap thrills This collision has thrown me over this hill Norco to help this pain be relieved Barbiturates cuz these migraines are hell on me Nowadays I’d kill to be able to sleep But these nightmares prevent me from having sweet dreams I’ve got the weight of the world riding on my back I’d take the easy way out, but it’s courage I lack This monkey on my back isn’t done flinging crap The wounds are still fresh from when I was picking scabs Don’t exceed 6 in a day, that’s a laugh Had a taste of the better life, what will become of that? But I’ve come too far to go back to that There’s no way I’m giving up now, not a chance I’ve seen the devil come in every single possible form When I embraced this habit he came in the form of storm A raging hurricane that left me lost in a sea of grief But I took the chance to set myself free Some only get one chance to set things right But some get multiple opportunities throughout our lives And waste them away, just like we waste our life Chasing highs that ultimately never suffice I’ve been chasing things that you only see in dreams Like being able to fly or true love without the strings There’s pain behind every smile but what else is new? I’m treating every minute in my life as an interlude The best has yet to come, I know that as a fact There will never be a moment my demons aren’t on the attack I’m just being me, the carbon copy of a better man And though I may stumble, I’ll get back up again When all is said and done, at least we had hope…

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