Was searching for a new beginning
Cuz the last act had me reeling
Honestly been thinking about quitting
Cuz the punches just keep on hitting
I’ve been watching someone I love waste away
And I know that we all have to die someday
But I’m just wondering why that day has to be today
All the bright colors in my life have faded to gray
I’m wondering what we all are really living for
When trying to stay alive becomes a chore
You’re breathing is shallow, just like mine
But I no longer see the twinkle in your eyes
You fight to stay alive; I know it hurts
For the first time in my life I can’t find the words
To bring peace to you or me, it’s a tragedy
When the voices in my head sound like a symphony

Hold on (Give up)
Don’t let go (Let go)
Keep it together (Come undone)
Stay in control (You’re out of control)

And I’m selfish, there’s no doubt about that
But I wouldn’t wish this pain on anyone else
I’ll take it stride, fake a smile, be that guy
Cuz you depend on that version of me to survive
I try to be strong, it’s just hard sometimes
When you have no one to lean on in times of strife
Cuz everyone else leans on you till you say it’s alright
This façade of mine is getting old, brittle, and trite
Tell you to love yourself but can’t even look in the mirror
Maybe it’s cuz recently the image is much more clearer
Been an uphill battle just to get to here
And it’s an even longer road ‘till I’m in the clear
Wanna take away your pain, but I don’t know how
Feel things too deeply, makes me wanna tear my hair out
Kill to feel nothing, just be comfortably numb
That’s why I take these pills; temptations succumbed
Trying to keep it together, but I’m coming undone
This situation is futile; Icarus reaching the sun
The story of my life, the second act of four
I’m halfway there; already have my foot out the door
Don’t have any answers, but got so many questions
If I believed in God I’d think he was teaching me a lesson
On how well I could do when he pulls out the rug
But I know God is dead, that’s why I fucked with these drugs
So maybe it’s my entire fault and this is what I deserve
A wolf in sheep’s clothing trying to lead the herd
Used to think I was special, now that just sounds absurd
Like you, make it up as I go along word for word
If she’s really man’s best friend, then this is a loss
But the day that you’re born every one of your stars are crossed
I’ll carry your memory with me for as long as I’ve got
I just want to say thank you, I love you, so long

Hold on (Give up)
Don’t let go (Let go)
Keep it together (Come undone)
Stay in control (You’re out of control)