You never see what you have ‘till the room starts spinning
You never see how much you’ve lost ‘till you start winning
You never see what things cost ‘till you’ve spent your last penny
You never see who is gone ‘till they can’t text back they’re ready
I’ve got a lot of dead friends who met dead ends, I’m deadened
I’d like to say they’re in heaven but I can’t pretend that’s where I’m headed
I’m not afraid of the end, I’m just afraid of it being for nothing
I’m not afraid of living, I’m just afraid I’m not living for something
You never see where you’re at ‘till the walls start caving in
You never see nothing lasts ‘till you’re burying family and friends
You never see that you can ‘till your loved ones say you can’t
You never see you can stand ‘till you fall back down again
I’ve got a lot of dark thoughts about dark spots, I’m darkly wrought
Some days are better than others, but most of them I’m just distraught
I’m not afraid of the end, I’m just afraid of nobody caring
I’m not afraid of living, I’m just afraid ‘cause depression is scary
You never see who you’re not ‘till your reflection is clear
You never see where you’ve gone ‘till the end is near
You never see everyone’s lost ‘till no one is there
You never see you’re the one ‘till no one else compares
I’ve had a lot of good times and bad times, they’ve all gotta count for something
But at the end of the day I’m afraid that my pain will mean nothing
I’m not afraid of the end, I’m just afraid it’s already coming
I’m not afraid of living, I’m just afraid I’m living for the wrong thing
You never see what they gave ‘till you’re trying to do the same
You never see your true place ‘till you get caught up in those chains
You never see what’s fake ‘till something real comes your way
You never see true hate ‘till you try to love what you create
I’ve got a lot of spent days circling my brain like a plane waiting for a lane
But the runways aren’t open and I’m running out of gas in this tank
I’m not afraid of the end, I’m just trying to delay destruction
I’m not afraid of living, I’m just trying to make it more constructive
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