I fucked with the best and got fucked like the rest
Till all the club drugs caused damage to my head
Went on a bender just to register effects
But it might have been just an escape attempt
From performing to a crowd of vacant eyes
I’m no longer trying to sell the world suicide
If heaven’s court asks me for an alibi
I’ll tell ‘em I was riding out a psilocybin high

When voices in your head
Tell you you're the best there is
And the alcohol in your stomach
Is making you feel shit
You might crash and burn
All over these kids
Don’t forget what you had to go through
To finally reach this
And the silence in the crowd
Is out of respect this time
Because what you’re doing
Transcends space and time
They’re caught up in the moment
You’re caught up in the act
You give them fire
They give you an atomic blast

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Who would I be if I didn’t have this gift?
That’d be like the Cure without Robert Smith
I can’t thank you all enough for the support I get
It makes me hopeful for whatever is next
Saw a problem with the scene and suplexed the trend
I’m wrestling with addiction but not letting it win
Antagonized these demons to the point of no return
But can’t go back on a one-way street, no u-turns
If every old line I wrote was chronicling my end
Consider this song the first chapter of my ascent
If you’d thought I’d stay the same you weren’t listening
Been floating on the winds of change since the beginning
And if everything I do is out of the public’s eye
Then honestly what’s there left of me to despise?
I gave the world matches and they lit me sky high
So every chance I have left is meant to defy

[Chorus]

Put your hands up if you’re glad to be alive
The ultimate delusion is that we have enough time
So why even bother trying to fall in line?
You should be living life by your own design
This is for all my heroes that aren’t better off dead
I miss them all so much when I’m lost in my head
But I know Mikey would just tell me to use this
Miss you as a fan and friend
Seen so many come up and meet their end
But you can’t bust through walls unless you keep runnin’
You taught me to look for my voice in dark places
And use it to propel the world to higher spaces
We all know what to say, instead we choose to escape
Before I build my empire I’m changing landscapes
Came into this scene like I should be wearing a cape
And if I’m ever successful, it’s not even fate
It’s the hustle and the bustle that are paving my way
Got dark thoughts in positive spots I’m trying to convey
In an over-saturated scene, I’m darker shades of gray
Forcing you to accept I’m not to be taken lightly
Cuz there’s blood in the water and I’m a shark on the prowl
With a mind sitting in some random venues lost and found
I’ve given all I’ve got to this, be damned if it doesn’t pan out
Cuz I’m the first rainfall after a decade long drought




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