My name is paranoia
And I’m coming for ya
I’m more than an annoyance
I’m your attempt at clairvoyance
When everything is moving
And life feels like it’s grooving
I’m a humble reminder
Of all you’re at risk of losing
I’m that voice inside your head
That says you’re better off dead
I’m the sense of overwhelming dread
That hits you every morning in bed
I’m the fears that creep up inside
Everytime she says goodnight or goodbye
It’s like I don’t believe I’m a worthy guy
It’s like I don’t believe I deserve this life
When all it comes down to is chasing the right highs
I’ll step short of every goal in my sights
Maybe the anxiety is right and I’m trite
How’d I get so distrustful of the people in my life?
When they so clearly see the good I hide inside
How’d I get so distrustful of all that I’ve brought to life?
When I can see the hope it puts in people’s eyes
How’d I get so caught up in my own damn plights?
When there are others who look at me to guide
How’d I get so caught up in this web of lies?
When there’s a world of truth staring straight into my eyes
Why am I so preoccupied with the figments of my mind?
When all they do is push me away from Jenn and Makai
Why am I so burdened by things that drive me to fright?
When all I want to do is stay with them for life
Why am I so preoccupied with what others think is right?
When all it does is make the world bleed and cry
Why am I so burdened by thoughts that fester in my mind?
This head is a prison of my own design
Wish I could accept the parts of me that survived
Instead of looking down on them for reaching for the light
Hope the people who hear my music find their inner might
And use it to their advantage when sunshine is slight
Wish I could forget the parts of me I let die
Instead of romanticizing them back to life
Hope the people that are left stay right by my side
And love me for the parts I can no longer hide

My name is depression
I’m a lesson in repression
A constant reminder
You’re not in the clear
When everything is moving
And it’s all too fast
The last, dying gasp
Of a faltering man
I’m that sense of impending end
You can’t remove from your head
I’m the voice in it that says
You’ll never be happy again
I’m the dark that tries hide the light
So I worry that my bright is too slight
It’s like I don’t believe I’m a good guy
It’s like I don’t believe I deserve this life
When all it comes down to is telling the right lie
I’ll step in the way of every car in sight
I’ve feared that’d be my fate this entire time
What’s left to exclaim when all that’s left is a guise
to protect you all from the darkness inside?
What’s left to engrain when you’re a dull knife
parading around as the sharpest tool alive?
What’s left to forsake when life’s a statement of vice
appropriated by rotating spectrums of highs?
What’s left to debase once there’s a flood inside
and you’ve drowned any remaining signs of life?
Why am I so preoccupied with always being right
While love and adoration pass right before my eyes?
How’d I get so caught up in this tangled web of vice
That causes me to inhabit this darker shade of night
Why can’t I let up off this urge to state my mind
I’ve come to terms that I’m the deaf leading the blind
Why can’t I forget everything that left me maligned?
When hope and happiness is well within sight
Wish I could accept the parts of me that survived
Instead of killing them with every drug in sight
Hope the ones that are left continue to confide
And love me for the parts that continue to collide

My name is hope
I’m more than a trope
I’m a pleasant reminder
Things get better from here
When everything is moving
And it all seems too good
I’m focusing on what I have
Rather than what I could
I’m that sense of approaching relief
You get from living your dream
I’m the voice in you that says
The good times are coming again
I’m the sliver of light tries to shine bright
‘cause the stars are brightest on the darkest of nights
It’s like I don’t believe I’m completely trite
It’s like I know deep down things will be alright
When all it comes down to is seeing the signs
I’ll step towards the light with a little fight
I’m thinking I was born to do this the whole time
What’s left to lose when you’re adrift but the shores in sight?
You might as well swim to it with all of your might
What’s left to gain when you’ve lost your bite?
Here’s to willing the impossible to life
What’s left of mistakes when they taught you wrong from right?
I’ve come to see I won’t measure up sometimes
What’s left to partake in when you’ve tried it all twice?
And all it did was leave you deaf, dumb, and blind
Why am I so preoccupied with always feeling right?
There’s lessons to be learned in the loneliest of nights
Why am I so caught up in this web of tries?
When I know the universe likes to speak through surprise
How’d I get so torn up just from living my life?
My collateral damage stretches for miles at both sides
Why should I let up when her beauty draws the line?
And she’s been right across the street the entire time
I’m trying to accept the parts of me that survived
And hold them with two hands up to the light
Hope the people left are treated with pride
And love me for the parts I no longer deride

My name is happiness
I’m the reason you exist
A defining reminder
There’s a reason you’re here
When everything is moving
Some things are meant to last
One last selfish act
Of a changing man
I’m the voice inside your head
That says keep looking ahead
I’m the sense of impending ascent
That you hope becomes a trend
I’m the tears of joy
you don’t have to hide
‘Cause for the first time in your life you feel alive
It’s like I finally see I’m full of love inside
It’s like I finally see everything will be fine
When all it comes down to is putting in the time
I’ll step forward with every bit of strength that resides
Everything’s been leading up to this the whole time
What’s left to hold back when things start to align?
It’s never perfect but it’s worth it, that much has been surmised
What’s left to ignore when all is laid before your eyes?
My purpose is to search for signs of life in all I find
What’s left to embrace when you’re living in its light?
Let the rays of the sun lead you to your birthright
What’s left to retrace when everything’s art to your eyes
And all it did was teach you how to love without guise
It’s time I preoccupied my mind with doing what is right
I’m a father now, I don’t have time to leave these fears alive
I’m untangling myself from this web I’ve devised
I know now that it was just a lesson meant for reprise
How’d I come this far and end up in paradise?
Don’t look back until you’ve reached the summit of the divine
Why be torn when she put me back together over time?
She’s a blessing, I hope she knows the extent of her might
Why should I give up when life is just getting sublime?
I promise to treat it like the chance of a lifetime
Why should I let up when I’ve earned this time to shine?
I honestly thought I’d live in perpetual night
I’ve finally accepted the parts of me that survived
And see that they were my strengths this entire time
Hope whoever follows this path finds the beauty in its plight
And loves it for the moments that became essential to life