Off of the 2014 EP "Catharsis" originally released under the stage name Anomaly.
lyrics
This pain is secondary, I’m used to misery
But what you put me through was more like a guillotine
And a life without you at the time was a pipe dream
But when you hung from your neck I held onto my screams
The silence I purveyed tore me from the inside
A license that you claimed when you came into my life
And the prices that I pay for letting you get by
While cutting yourself open and smirking while you died
I’m at a loss for words while you’re at a loss for life
And even to this day I haven’t learned how to cry
I just let the pain sink and build up inside
Now I’m screaming through a microphone to expose your lies
You still haunt me in my dreams though I’ve paid the piper twice
It’s like nothing in this world will ever suffice
I’m moving mountains now with every word I write
But every song still echoes you and replenishes my plight
You used to call me “Casanova of the dark side”
But now I’m more like Romeo who never found the light
You were my Juliet who was never satisfied
Now I’m hiding in the shadows and embracing the night
With every song I write another piece of me dies
And resurrects as you wearing a disguise
I wear this cracked façade to hide my disgust
Because every smile I’ve made you’ve turned into dust
You had it in your head that there would always be an us
But when dawn turned to dusk you nailed your coffin shut
One night you realized you never wanted to wake up
And the ideas you instilled in me really fucked me up
You fostered this addiction like I fostered your pain
And remembering that night only drives me insane
I take the memories of you like a bullet to the brain
I chop them down, line them up, and snort ‘em like cocaine
You wore your heart on your sleeve; I wear mine at my thigh
There isn’t a drug in the world that can prevent this sigh
A noose around your neck was your way of saying goodbye
And I’ll never forget the final look in your eyes
I could never love you; I didn’t even know how to try
You believed there was a better place for you in the sky
But now I know there’s nothing there but a peaceful afterlife
And I’ve made my peace with you; I’m glad that you died
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